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Reading the blog entries of my younger juniors or (ex?) team mates brought back bitter sweet memories of myself when I was their age..
I skipped school and nothing else matters except for myself..
the only difference is that I was a floater..I didn't have floorball then..so I was basically hanging and out and wasting time with friends I know longer keep in touch with..having said that, are they mere acquaintances now?

Floorball seems to be an integral part of their lives now..
I was wondering if floorball is taken out of their lives totally, what will happen?
I felt lost when I had to stop fb 2 years back..'coz training days take 2-3 days of my week,
and if it was the league and tournament periods, another 2 days will be gone: 1 game day and 1 to watch the rest of the games..
5 days of floorball speaks soo much of my social life outside the circle..

I donn't know whether it's a blessing..
But I'm kinda thankful that I wasn't a hardcore fb player..
I super love the game..yes..I have dreams too (used to) to play well..
But there was just something inside me that is preventing me from giving it all of my 100%..
Having started playing at a later age, I alredy has commitments that I had to juggle together with playing floorball..
Maybe that is also the reason why it was kinda easy for me to "drop" fb after my injury..
Not after much tears of course..*sigh*

On happier note, last training, I actually went for the ball like all the way! And the feeling was good, Hoody didn't give way and I was like wow! It's not that bad afterall! hahahaha...Jo even came up to me and said "Erh, look! These are all the bruises u gave me leh!"..I apologised but secretly, I was pleased...^_^ hee heee...Hoody & Huda's back..Double tag team..and the constant discussion bout Hoody and May with MW helps to ease that tension I have been having 'coz we are going thru the same shit altho she's much more disciplined in her rehab..oh well, I'm motivated!hehehe...

Now, time to work on my speed work..I realised I can't seem to sprint as fast as I want to..not 'coz of Hoody but just coz my butt's getting so huge that it's getting in the way!hah..train! train! train!! ^_^

Bye!

Oh gosh! I have sooo many things in mind right now..but things have gotten so scrambled that I just do not know how or where to start extricating them!oh well..maybe I should list them down:

1. Take level 2 of cake decorating course
2. Have a map what goes into the booklet for my website: flavours, toppers, icing, stands, themes
3. Things to buy for the baking: DIY stands, boxes, ribbons
4. Studies
5. To do something about my poor bike which is falling apart
6. Finish my unfinished orders (arghhhh)
7. Counting down to my resignation..
8. To do my year plan
9. Send homework to students now that school's starting
10. Settle next year's staff welfare matters
11. Maybe family planning??

Sigh, duno..So many things but I don't know which to prioritize! It's crazy! I wish I have the luxury of a few years of holiday to just sit down and re-route my life. That will be effing goooood..but that's just crapping on my part!

May seem minute matters to some others but I am really serious in my baking..I just a need a good break..somewhere, somehow..anyone?hah! But then again, when the 'fatherly hormones' start acting up in Hamzah, a lot of other things have to be put on halt..unless I make clones of myself..and I foresee that the time will be rather soon..have seen little inklings of a possible full blast of those hormones..errrr...delay awhile more can dear?hahahah..

oh well..just hope to sort out things pretty soon..
arghh..how I wish I can make a wish for things to turn out my way..hah! ^_^

Kinda dreading the long day today..
Started at 9am till 545pm!
Blechz!

But it was a fruitful one..
I was aredy burning out after these 8 years and
I dun think I could teach anymore coz
I thot I just dun have IT in me anymore..to go on, I mean..

But not one, not two, not three but a few parents mentioned that
they could see vast improvements in their child..
Be it in their speech, meltdowns, studies, reading-wise..
Quoting one parent:
"I am touched by all that you teachers have been doing and I am very happy to see ***** doing all these..
I never thought she will ever do all these by herself at home..So I really thank you all...really.."
He was so sincere when he said that I actually teared..so emo huh..

I feel that I was at my career plateau or mebe at a crossroad..
But the various sessions today kinda boosted my morale..
and I am sooo looking forward to working with the children next year!! ^_^

But then again, I shall not speak too soon..
coz I have yet to find out my class and my co-teacher this Friday..
Hope "THE newS" will end the school semester with a BOOMZ!
hahaha..
But I got a super strong feeling that I will be getting my same class again..=)

hmmmm....

"kapo"-ed the link from grace's blog..heheh..
mostly are true but definitely Not the affairs part..
I wish I had had an affair previously but sadly, I'm not that adventurous..muahahaha..

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heh, yeah..so I'm married now..
feels sweetly weird..
but kinda handicapped coz no mummy or daddy to do stuffs for me..
I'm on my own now..

sometimes Hamtaro n me get emotional..
coz we both miss our family so much..
=S

make me realise how much my parents have done for me
all these years..
Thank you ayah n ibu!love you loads!^_^

ok, shall stop now before i go all emo again!

Talked to a parent during our PTC (parent-teacher conference) session..
She has got such practical plans for her son..
Everything that she does now or before is for HIS future..
I'm inspired..
I'm touched..
And feelings within me is definitely stirred..like...Wow..hmmm..

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A pupil who is able to ask to go to the toilet poo-ed..
And I mean, reaaaally poo-ed!
THAT thing was on the floor, his Tshirt, socks (which was in the urinal), shoes, face, hands..everywhere!!
I am OK with cleaning up and all..must say I'm quite gd after 8 yrs..
But he just had to spray water all over and the toilet floor was flooded with faeces AND water..
UUughhh!

Was totally grossed out..
Had to ask the auntie to clean him up....
and felt guilty afterwards..

Felt as though I had passed the baton to a reserve, when I am the main runner..
Kept thinking bout it..
My conscience kept bugging me...
Simply coz I got another person to do the shit job for me..literally.

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Embarrased myself big time:

Me: Yah, as though she is squaring them up (just as I said this I went ooops! that was freaking wrrroooooooonggg!)
Parent: Yes, she likes sizing people up..(subtle correction I see..)
Me: Heh, yes...(awkward smile)

arghhhhhhhhhh!! damn shitty!! Why da hell did I say squareeeeeeeeeeeeeee??
!&^&(%%$^

Now I think the mum will go:
"Hell! My daughter's being taught by a moron!"

oh dear!!

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Someone-please-kill-me-now.

My dreams list

1. Complete a full marathon
2. To jog every morning (yah right)
3. To get my baking certificate
4. To take up sewing class (no, not coz I'm gettin married..have always wanted to do this)
5. To work in a special school in Thailand
6. To get rid of my super black eye rings (looking at the time of this post you will know what's the cause)
7. To make at least one person happy each day
8. Learn to love myself
9. Discover/Do something that I can be proud of
10. Eat vegetables everyday
11. Drink plainwater everyday
12. Jog twice a week
13. Start my degree
14. Get married (haha!)

Duno how many times I've typed out my list! See the same old things but achieved none! damn! what the hell!hahaha..
Mebe shld come up with a failure or injury list..think there will be more achievements! craaaapppp!

thankful..

"Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful."

I'm tired..

I should go to sleep nowwwwwwwwwwwww....................
auuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm................................

"How seamless seemed love and then came trouble!"

pleasurable trouble..hahaah..


how apt.



=)

Now it hurts even to see pictures of floorball..
it hurts to find out what's going on and to know that you'll never be part of it again..

ever.....


it's best to keep the distance..
best just to pretend floorball was never in my life.



the end.

 

3 deaths this week:

>>Karen Nonis's mum
>>YiYi's ah-gong
>>Shin Na, the cancer fighter

sad.....
goes to show I'm still human afterall...........

My partner just sent me her set of IEPs..
I was kind enough to ask her to do 7 pupils while I do 8..
and she sent me oni 4 saying that she can't think of any goals for the other 3 since 1 has never come to
school before, 1 came oni once and 1 is a new student..and that her eyes are closing soon!!!
And I have aredy told her what kinda goals to set for them..
I had even sent my set of 8 students' IEP as examples..
And she gave me this crap..
ok nvm...

When I opened the email, what did I see but this:

PRESENT LEVEL OF PERFORMANCE:

• The pupil is able to ask for help in positive manner.
• The pupil is able to work quietly when given an assignment to complete

(Only 2 liners of pupils' present performance????????????? When I did a blardy 5 lines forevery 8 of the students I had to do???)

IEP Goals:

Pupil will be able to:
- line up and walk in line with other students
- wait quietly and respectfully while others are speaking
-  ignore distractions in environment by continuing to focus on own work
- make requests using polite language (e.g. "Can you help me?")
-  use appropriate phrases (i.e. "please, and thank-you, and excuse me")

What kinda Individualised Educational Plans are theseeeeee??? wait quietly and RESPECTFULLY while others are speaking??
how do u wait respectfully??arghhhhhhhhh..am I too much?? She's new and all but when I asked her does she have any problems? She always say NO!I kept on prompting her to give me a call if she finds it difficult but no calls at all and she gave me this shit! arghhh..kill me please!

Is it 'coz I have high expectatons of her? I mean..she's not bad at all..she catches up very fast and I expect her to give me a certain standard kinda work but why this??*sigh*..I dun wanna scold her..in fact, I think I pampered her too much...coz I did the Year Plan (curriculum) all by myself..she oni discussed with me for Art n her English..and that was only a 10%?20% contribution? Gosh! How did it end up to this! Her reason, "I really duno!" I was once new too but I asked a lot..too much in fact..but everytym I ask her "Everything ok? You know how to conduct the lesson?" ...she will always answer "Yah, can"..God! please puncture her ego and bring ehr back down please...

arghhhhhhhhhhh...And I am still up at this hour vetting HER slipshod work while she catches her sleep! and to think I'm on MC and my nose is still runny and my head feels heavy and that I actually finished my part sometime ago...=_(

I can't take it.....

when words mask fake actions,
you get deception..

it's a shame..
tsk..tsk..

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urm, ok..I'm not so gung-ho suddenly..
42km????I must be kidding myself..
gosh..what was I thinking?????????????

4months to train?????????

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a classmate uploaded my pics from pre-U days..
din realise I DID have melayu friends..
hmmm..so where r they now?
blechz..it has been awhile since I went out in a big group of friends for Hari Raya visiting..

*sigh* why am I such an outkast?=(

 

at 4.55 AM, I declare myself officially insane coz I just signed up for the Adidas Sundown Marathon in May..

Dear Angel

Thank you. You have registered for adidas Sundown Marathon 2009 successfully. The Confirmation Slip below is for your reference. Please kindly print it out for your race pack collection.

ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 2009

Name to appear in certificate Gender NRIC/Passport No Shy Angel Female S8XXXXXXX   Race ID Race Category XXXXXXX Marathon (42.195KM) - Women\'s Open

(names have been changed to protect the innocent)
Yes, I will be running the 42km..for the first time..mad?crazy? yes, I noe..
Apart from that, I've also signed up for the Safari Zoo Run and NewtonActiveRun09..
Whatever for??? I duno..self-satisfaction? bo-liaoness?oh well..just hope I wun drop dead..
or my knee wun give way..hahaha..


oh, can I boast?since this is my blog..
remember I was complaining about swallowing chlorine?
1st official lesson with Ham was in Aug (also the day I actually moved in water!!)..
to date, I'm aredy able to swim the Olympic size pool of 50m for 1 hr NON-STOP..
oh yes, non-stop as in no rests in between at all..1hr straight!
whoopiiieeeee! ok, enuf of boasting..hahah..

shaddap to those who can aredy swim fast and longer,
I'm boasting to those who can't..muahahaha..
*pure evil*

ok, I've finished entertaining myself..
it'slike5.13AMnow;soIthinkI'dbettergotosleepsoonelseIwon'tbeabetowakeuptomorrowtodowork!

bye!^_^